Bryden,
I remember this day, 7 years ago, like it was yesterday. Actually, it started May 10th. I went into the hospital that night to be induced and was so scared and excited to meet my baby boy. What an entrance you made into this world. You were so stubborn and decided to make me wait a week past your due date..and even then we had to give you a little push, but when you were ready you didn't take any time! As a matter of fact, I didn't even have time for an epidural. Your grandparents barely made it in time. In fact, your dad almost missed it! The moment I was able to hold you and look into your eyes, I knew that my world was forever changed. I had never in my life experienced such an intense love for anyone until you entered my world. You gave me the gift of what it means to love and be a part of something greater than yourself.
I know I don't always get it right. You are my first born, which means that I am still learning how to parent. I know I sometimes blame you when it is Aeson's fault (although I am quickly realizing that most of the time it IS defintely his fault). I sometimes yell too much and talk too much when I should just be listening. I realize a lot of times that my standards for you may be too high and I often scold you for not behaving when you are just being a kid. I am working on this. I am learning to "pick my battles". Some days I get it right and others I fall too short.
I hope you realize that despite of my faults as a person and as a mom, I hope you never spend one moment of your life doubting my love for you. With that being said there are few things that I want you to know on your special day.
You are the one that taught me the meaning of unconditional love.
You have taught me that is ok to just be yourself (even though we both need some reminding at times). It is ok to be different and being yourself is THE best thing!
You remind me every day not to sweat the small stuff.
You have taught me compassion. You are so genuine and truly care about others.
You have taught me that love is always enough.
You remind me every day that I do have a purpose.
Thank you so much for just being you. You make me laugh every day and I love your sarcastic sense of humor (although it can get you in trouble at times). You are so smart and I am truly amazed at how much you have learned this year in first grade. So far, this has been the year you have changed the most. I love that you are so into sports. I have been so tired from running you from practice to practice and our Saturdays have been packed with games..but it has been so much fun and rewarding watching you grow and improve.
I am so grateful today and everyday for all the things you have brought into my life. I am grateful for everything you have taught me and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us.
Today is emotional for me. I cried on your first birthday and on your 5th birthday. I am crying today on your 7th birthday. I never really thought of age 7 as such a milestone, but you have grown up so much over the past year. You seem so "old" to me. I can't believe you are almost through with 1st grade. When I think of all the things you have brought to me over the years, I am moved to tears.
I love you so much. Words can never express the feelings I have for you.
Happy Birthday sweet boy!
