Mindless chatter

I love November!  I am that cheesy person that gets super excited when Halloween is over because that means Christmas is coming!  Don't get me wrong, I love Thanksgiving too but I just love the holiday season and I consider the two holidays a packaged deal.  I can't wait to put up the tree and start playing christmas music.  I wish the weather was cold so we could bundle up next to a fire and drink hot chocolate and be a cozy little family.  Of course, reality would soon set in and the noises of whining and complaining from the little ones would take over and I would have to bring up, again, that Santa is watching. 

I can't believe Thanksgiving is less than 2 weeks away!  I am literally counting down the days.  Unfortunately, I think it more because I am ready to have 4 days off work.  I am so confused with what to do about my work situation.  I plan on staying where I am for a little while, but am truly unhappy.  I am playing with the idea of going to school again.  I went as far to applying to grad school at UNT and am ready to enroll for the spring semester!  A few years ago I decided I wanted to go into teaching and was looking into alternative certification programs and began subbing in a few districts.  All that came to a halt when life took a little turn and I needed to get into a job quickly.  Life has settled a bit and I am now realizing how unhappy I am.  I am not meant to do corporate type jobs.  I am also not meant to be a stay at home so I wish people would stop commenting that "you just don't like to work!"  I just want to do something that I am passionate about and that will allow me to be happy.  I also would love to see my kids a little more.  I feel myself being pulled away from so many things going on in their lives and I can't let that happen anymore.  They mean the world to me and I don't want to miss anything.  I am so out of the loop and I don't know any of Bryden's school friends parents because I am too busy working and racing home to pick them up at a decent time to do dinner, homework, bath, and bed. 

Starting something new is a decision I am struggling with.  I know I am not old by any means, but I am almost 30!  Only one more year to go!  I just wish I would have decided to do this the first time around.  On the other hand, I don't want 5 or 10 more years to go by and I have regrets that I didn't decide to pursue it.  Decisions, decisions...