First of all, here I am last week (16 weeks). I feel like I should be bigger than this with twins, but I guess I wasn't ever that big with singletons either. Actually, I don't think I was showing at all at this point with Bryden or Aeson.
As you can see..I am full of worry! I'm worried I'm not big enough, I'm worried that I haven't felt them (or have I?), I'm worried that the heart rate is faster on one, I'm worried about walking around too much or not enough, worried that I have a headache, worried, worried, worried!!! Ugh! I could not WAIT to get pregnant again. I wanted to savor every little moment since I may not ever experience this again! Unfortunately, all my joy has been taken over by anxiety. Twins are scary. Almost every story of people I personally know that have been pregnant with twins have had some sort of issue. It ranges from bed rest, to hospital bed rest, to premature labor that leads to the death of one or even both babies...or maybe they both made it, but they were in the NICU for MONTHS! This makes me freak out! I've reached out to the internet world and asked for some positive stories and I received many of them...so I know that it is possible! I am trying to have faith that my body has had two healthy children with absolutely no issues and that it can do it for two. I don't even mind the thought of bed rest (although with two older kids in school and part of various activities this could be a little problematic), I'm obviously most terrified of something happening to them. I've expressed my concerns with my OB and he seems to think that everything will be fine and to quit freaking out when we don't have anything to worry about at the moment.
Anyway, that's it for today. Just hoping I can relax because what will be will be... Any thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated!
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