My baby is 5!

5 years old sucks.  Well..I guess it probably doesn't..but, I am going to pout about it anyway!  I don't know why the big "5" is so sad for me.  1st and 5th birthdays get to me every dang time.  I guess because 4 and younger still seems so small, but FIVE!!  My goodness!  He starts kindergarten next year!  My little guy is too small for kindergarten, isn't he??  Wasn't he just starting to walk and talk and wearing diapers?? 

I know I don't blog often, but I try to blog a letter to my kids on their birthdays (I am aware I am a day late)...so here it goes:

Aeson,

Yesterday was your 5th birthday!  It was bittersweet for me.  First of all, 5 years old makes me cry.  You are my baby and I am not ready for you to be a "big boy".  Second of all, I didn't even spend much of the day with you.  You were with your dad and had a small party with him and his family.  I cried most of the morning because I wasn't able to see your sweet face when you woke up on your birthday.  However, you were home early that evening just in time to go to a restaurant of your choice..which of course was "hibachi".  We went to Jin Beh where you ate your regular...soup and fried rice.  You were too exhausted to eat much of your ice cream or even have a birthday cupcake when you got home, but we had a great time anyway.  I hope your birthday was a special day for you! 

Time is flying by and there are a few things I want you to hear.  You are literally the sweetest kid I know.  I am well aware that I am little biased since you belong to me, but seriously...you would give the shirt off your back to make someone else happy.  You let your brother eat your birthday ice cream at dinner and even offered him to sleep with your "dream light" that you got for your birthday.  I tried to remind you that this was your new present and there was no need to share it just yet, but you insisted.  I love this quality about you and I hope it never changes. 

This year you started your first year of preschool.  I want you to know that we were all anxiously waiting for this day to see how it would unfold.  You are so smart, but you also have this care free attitude that we weren't sure if it would help you or hurt you in school.  So far you have exceeded all my expectations!  You seem to love school and love learning.  The first couple of weeks you tried to act like you brother and tell me that you "were too tired to tell me about your day".  I know you were just used to hearing him say this, but I knew that somewhere deep inside you were dying to fill me in on the details.  When I finally got you to break your silence, you went into every single detail about what happened at school.  These days I don't even have to ask.  We leave your classroom and you tell me about your day from start to finish.  I love that you love school.  I also love the care free attitude you have that I thought could be hurtful in a learning environment.  You have made many friends and from what I can see it looks like the teachers are pretty fond of you too.  Every morning that I drop you off they get you out of the car and you always have something to say that makes them smile and laugh.  I always wonder what you are telling them, because you never know with you!  We are also so amazed and amused by the things that come out of your mouth.

You are so fun and full of personality.  People are drawn to you and I can see why!  You are full of snuggles, hugs and kisses!  I literally can't get enough of it. 

This year has been full of fun and excitement and I can't wait to see what the next year has in store for you. 

We love you so much and I hope you never change!

Love,

Mommy